Grandmother faces reality of Hemi's death
A FAMILY has been left shattered and angry with feelings of "helplessness and guilt" 18 months after the death of their brother and grandson.
Hemi Les Burke was killed at Moranbah on March 26, 2015. On September 23, he would have been three years old.
At the Proserpine Show in June, Hemi Burke's older sister, 11-year-old Teasha, bought a tailor-made necklace with her brother's name on it.
This week, Teasha will travel with her grandmother and Proserpine local Lyn Burke to Dapto in NSW, to place the necklace on the grave of her brother.
Last week, 18 months after Hemi's death, Matthew James Ireland, 31, was ordered by Mackay Magistrates court to stand trial over the death.
The trip to Hemi's grave has been a grim pilgrimage for Ms Burke and Teasha. "We will have butterfly cupcakes and put little toys out," Ms Bourke said.
Ms Burke was at the committal hearing in Mackay last week - she said it was one of many court appearances she has attended and won't be the last. "I spent the last two weeks before this getting ... very uptight," she said.
"I tried to read what happens at committal hearings (to find out) what goes on and what I can do to try and be ready."
"I took a friend with me and she will come every time because if I can't drive and need to be driven home, she is there with me. The time before I sat by the side of the road for an hour because I was crying."
Ms Burke said she has been overwhelmed with feelings of helplessness and guilt.
"Anger is a big one and it stays. But the whole thing, helplessness, guilt. Even Teasha who was 10 at the time says 'I should have been there, I could have saved him'."
Ms Burke was frustrated by the lengthy wait for answers and devastated that her grandson never got the chance to even grow up.
"He got to walk, he was still wetting his nappies...he didn't get to do a thing," she said.
Ms Burke said when the trial was over she planned to deliver an education program in schools aimed at curbing violence.
"We have a cycle of violence in our world that just continues. The cycle needs to be stopped somewhere. Let's stop bashing the crap out of our kids," she said.